FORMER PRO-DOM GIVES HIS TESTIMONY ABOUT THE BDSM - DOMINANCE AND SUBMISSION LIFESTYLE
By Synthia Esther
Synthia Esther : Jerry, thank-you for getting back to me...and...God bless you for speaking the truth about D & S.
Jerry: I was Dom as a Pro. True, Pro Doms generally are "NON-SEXUAL" but the scene still revolves around LUST and much of the play is degrading, and can be very unsafe and extreme. There is nothing positive about being beaten until welts and marks are all over a person from caning, and I regret I did it! There are also very unsafe, unclean forms of play that goes on, and it now disgusts me. Believe me sister, I have been to NYC's notorious "Black & Blue Ball" before and I know all of the players in the biz. I was very into that scene, and I can tell you wholeheartedly, that it is demeaning, to both the Dom or the Sub, it doesn't matter.
Synthia Esther: Jerry, anything you could write and tell me would help...as your opinions come from a first hand basis.
Jerry: I have an issue with porn, and the adult industry in general. Whether it's porn, escorting, BDSM/fetish, stripping, etc... the adult industries do nothing but destroy. You know Synthia, what hurts me most is that some of the most good hearted and outgoing friends I ever had, were Pro Doms and people in the fetish/S &M scene. It's sad though, they are doing what they are doing, when they are better than that. Sure, you can post my testimony on your website. In Christ's Love, Jerry.
I became a believer (Christian), near the end of December 2006. Prior to changing my life to follow God, I lived quite a different life, a life that was wild, in vain, self-destructive, and with no promise of a future or any peace with life nor myself. I was once employed in the Adult/BDSM Industry as a Professional Dom, as well was I also once a Satanist. During the 1990's, I was a lead singer for a Death/Doom Thrash Metal band in Philadelphia called "Evil God Revival" which managed to be popular within the region. Obviously, the band was very satanic themed and anti-Christian, and at the time I lived a very reckless life. Prior to the band, I also was a Professional wrestler who graduated from Larry Sharps Monster Factory. My career as a wrestler was short lived, only 2 years (1989-1991) but for what it was worth, it was a fun part of my life and I met a lot of people in that Industry.
However, as most of my ventures in life, I still had not found my identity nor my purpose. I was a very lost man struggling to be someone, always concerned with what the world thought of me as I had tremendous low-self esteem and always suffered with Bipolar/Manic depression. I was abused as a child and young teen, and as many who suffered abuse, I became an abuser myself, taking my hostilities out on other people. Being manic, I had severe rage issues in my past, and there were even times in my life when I had thoughts of suicide.
I do share my faith with others and am always prepared to explain why I believe. While I will never come across with condemnation toward others, I will however defend my faith. I will defend it because I believe. Some are bewildered that I now believe in and walk after a God I formerly resented, blasphemed, mocked, and never even was sure existed, but I do! I believe wholeheartedly that there IS a God, and I believe what the Bible says about God is true. A decade ago, I had no regard for the Bible, but now I will defend the Bible no matter what, and I am NOT ashamed of the God I honor and serve.
My becoming who I am was not premeditated in any way, it just happened. I cannot explain why I would change like this, but I have changed and the only thing that could cause a man as myself to do such a complete turn around, is GOD. Yes, God does exist, make no mistake about it, and I also believe in the Christ! At one time, I was what I would consider as an agnostic when it came to God, but I was very influenced by the Occult also and I was into a lot of LaVey Satanism. Later however, I researched Theistic Satanism as well, and other various paths of spiritualism and occultism including: Golden Dawn, Theosophy, Western Paganism, Ordo Templi Orientis, and the Keys of Solomon. But with all of this being so, nothing has awakened my spirit more so then the living God spoken of in the Bible. I believe with all of my mind, all of my heart, and all of my spirit, that God does in fact exist, God is real, and God is ONE. There are no "gods" but the true living God, the one the ancient Hebrews wrote about and spoke about, this IS God!
God is my refuge, God is my comfort, God is my helper, and God is my encouragement! God provides ALL I need, and it is only in GOD I place my full trust, dependence, and hope! God is my strength and all things are possible with God. Amen
Synthia Esther Responds:
Jerry turned his heart over to the one true God who can save a lost heart, soul, and mind, Jesus Christ! His testimony confirms that no matter one's past may have been, God forgives. Indeed we are ALL SINNERS saved by God's grace, mercy, and love. God loves you with an everlasting love. Nothing is too difficult for God to heal. Nothing and No One (even Satan) can separate you from God's love and forgiveness. Just talk to God as you would a friend. For that is what He is, a friend upon whom you can depend. May the truth of God's light set you free from a life of bondage. May God's peace and love surround you. I care. God care's about "You"!
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